Monday, February 28, 2011

Two Wrong Answers

I have started reading Waking the Dead by John Eldredge.  I was seeking a book out that might be able to help me with some of the issues I was going through in my Christian walk.  And as I started reading the book to see if it were right for me I found myself nodding my head, a lot.

In my Christian walk I have found that I too have two answers to what has happened to me. They are:
  1. I blew it.  I screwed up.  I did something wrong, etc.
  2. God is holding out on me.
Both are devastatingly wrong, but in my current state of mind they were the two that made the most sense.  Either I had messed up or God could fix it, but wouldn't, and usually I would think He wouldn't because of something I had done.  A vicious cycle to be sure.

I'm still reading the book and what I read last night made me cry. (Just keep in mind I cry at Hallmark commercials, so if you're not inclined to crying you'll be fine, but if you are, get the Kleenex out.)  However, because of this book my perception and focus are changing.

I want to encourage you that if you feel stuck, like perhaps you'll never get it, as I do so often, that isn't the case.  That is a lie.  And we know who the father of all lies is.

In the coming weeks I'll tell you what I'm personally doing that I have found to help me, and perhaps can help you.

As you know I can't let this go without some music.

So here I give you:

Pictures of You
by The Last Goodnight
Much Love,

Friday, February 25, 2011

Closer to Freedom

I'm getting closer to the freedom that I've been desiring and it makes me want to run through the streets with my arms above my head shouting.  However, this might be seen as an aggressive move and give me a reputation I don't want from the public.  Everyone who is close to me already knows the truth.

In ramping up for this I'm excited to tell you that I will actually be finishing, which is my letter business.  It will be a few weeks before I have everything in place, but it will finally get there.

Cakewrecks posted the link for this video yesterday on Twitter and I laughed so hard when I saw it I wanted to share it with all of you!

Have a fabulous weekend everyone. 

Much Love,

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Girls Night Out

That is what I am having tonight! 

So one of the big new things I'm doing is finding out how to do things I don't know how.  For example I know almost zero about cars.  I know that I need to change the oil and put gas in it to run.  I know how to check to see if I have oil, but to change the oil?  I haven't paid enough attention.

The other thing I'm doing is reading a new book.  I hope to explore this book with you as it is changing my heart and mind in such a glorious way.

So in the coming weeks I hope to bring you what I've learned in a fun and uplifting way.

Until then in response to our morning shower I give you:

It Never Rains in Southern California
by Albert Hammond

Much Love,

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

A Big Decision

So I did something today that has been weighing on my mind for some time.  I've decided to step down from the board in which I mod.  It has been wonderful being a moderator, but my time is fleeting and I need to pursue some other venues that being needed on the board won't allow me to do in the capacity that I yearn for.

I feel a freedom with it, but I feel the loss as I have gotten to work with two incredible moderators on my time there.  So my heart hurts because of that.  However, I'm looking forward to this new chapter and I can't wait to share in the coming weeks what will be happening.

Much Love,

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A Huh? Moment.

I am a picky eater. 

I have been since birth.  Ask my mom, and anyone who has tried to feed me since birth.  They'll tell you I'm not exaggerating.

It isn't because they didn't try, bless their hearts, it is just the texture and taste of certain foods make me wig out.  For example, I love the taste of sweet potatoes, but I HATE the texture.  I sometimes have a shiver go down my spine if I find that the potato mushy.  (I detest regular potatoes no matter how you cook them.  Even french fries are questionable.)

Because of this food pickiness I sometimes suffer from food boredom, when I get sick of eating a particular food.  To help remedy this I choose my food at work the Sunday before it starts so I won't get food I won't eat. This allows for variety, cravings, fun, and practical money spending.

However, because I have allowed myself this freedom I have noticed that yes I do pick different foods, but they are all variations of the same thing:

Pizza Lunchables
French Bread Pizza
Hot Pockets w/ Pizza
Pizza slices

I've been doing this for weeks. 

I didn't notice until today.

It makes me go huh?

So while I ponder my predicament here is a great song:

New Soul
by Yael Naim

Much Love,

Working Hard

Hello Loves!

I don't know about you but my days just seem to get away from me.  Today though my board celebrates something big.  I'm very proud to be a part of it and I just wanted to share something I did for the celebration.

Wallpaper belongs to Kelli W. Please ask permission for use.

There are a lot of changes happening in my life, but I'm looking forward to the change.  It will be sad in some cases, but is necessary.

I can't wait to share with you what is going on.

Much Love,

Saturday, February 19, 2011

McDonalds & Billy Joel

These two have nothing to do with one another except this morning I had McDonald's and I listened to Billy Joel.  To me that is a great way to start my Saturday.
I did make it to the office.  You can see by the new blog look it has been updated.  I have great tools here at the office, but not on my laptop at home.  I'm also creating work for my board that I mod.  The board has been there seven years, so it is a pretty big deal.

I hope that you are enjoying your Saturday out there.  We actually have to turn on our A/C at the house, that is how hot is has gotten.  A complete 180 from the ice days of only a week ago.

I've found new shoes that I've fallen in love with this.  My mom said if she won the lottery she would buy them for me.  I'm crossing my fingers.

Much Love,

Friday, February 18, 2011

Friday Funs

Tomorrow I really need to go to work to get some things done that I can't while I'm there during the week.  So, I'm thinking tomorrow I'm going to indulge and get a sausage biscuit with cheese.

I say this to you not to make you jealous because there aren't many who don't have access to a McDonald's I say this because if you are stuck in a rut do something different.

So I've made a list of things that you might not have done in a while to give you something to think about:

Go to a movie on a school night.
Do a sleep over tonight.  Get junk food, pizza, stay up and watch movies, etc.
Make a gourmet meal with your sweetie, and then order pizza if it doesn't come out quite the way you intended.
Sit down at the fast food restaurant instead of getting it to go.
Go to the park and swing or get dizzy on the merry go round.
Go for a drive and look at the beautiful homes out there.
Go to a museum.
Sing Karaoke, even if it is in your own home.
Invite others over to your house and just have a neighborhood fun party, all BYOB.
Make a great collage of all the things that inspire you.

These are just a few, but sometimes the thing that might help to get you out of your funk is to do something unexpected and fun.  It will renew you and remind you that it won't always be the way it is.

Oh, and if you need a good party song, I have a suggestion:

Turn Up the Radio
by Autograph

Much Love,

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I Watched a Dog Show

I had forgotten last night that instead of White Collar, USA would be televising, Westminister Dog Show.  I was very surprised when I actually watched it.

This was the resulting winner:
It is a Scottish Deerhound.  I had no idea it existed.  I was rooting for the terrier.

The reason is I'm biased.  Very biased.  So biased in fact that if I ever get another dog it will have to be as smart as a terrier.  And this little guy, is the reason why:

The eyes are what get me.

Every time.

And the fact I can say, "Go show me what you want."

And he does.

Every time.

Much Love,

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Parents and Humor

My sense of humor seems to be gone for the day, but I will try to forge ahead and focus on the positive.  For one, I had a great Valentine's Day.  I certainly hope you did.  I got exactly what I wanted:

Dilled Cauliflower and V8 Juice.

I came home to that, and let me tell you it brightened up my day!

So, I posted on Facebook: I have the best parents ever.

Because, well, I do.  It wasn't a statement about anyone else's parents.  It was a statement about my parents and how they are the best.  As in, I know your parents are the best for you and do great things, but these are my parents, and as my parents they are the best.  I don't know if your parents would be the best for me, so on and so forth.

It really irritated me the response I got.  Which is why, although I think those that responded might have meant it in a funny way, it was not received well.
This is also why I have to stop posting on Facebook, but that is another issue to tackle another day.

Meanwhile, tonight I'm going to volunteer at the church for their Upwards Celebration.  I did it last year and had a lot of fun, so I'm looking forward to it this year.

Much Love,

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Valentine's Day

I wish you all much love and kindness today.  I have been away for a while, but I'm back.  The past few weeks have been crazy with snow storms, work, and non-work, but still time consuming pursuits.

However, I'm back and since I don't want to try counting again I'm no longer numbering my days in the challenge.  Just know each day presents its own challenges.

I'd be curious to know how many of you got what you wanted or were hoping for Valentine's Day.  I don't know if I'll get mine, but if I do I'll post a picture of it.  My desire, is of course, traditional and then very non-traditional.  Kinda like me!

I will be posting a new background and photo soon.  As I tweeted earlier I know spring is coming back because this weekend I saw two bumble bees and then this morning the tiniest spider was on my desk and when I went to inspect it bungee jumped off my desk to the floor.  I was so stunned that the little guy got away.  Oh well.

Again I wish you much love today and I leave you with this wonderful love song.

Two Is Better Than One
Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Much Love,