Two Wrong Answers

I have started reading Waking the Dead by John Eldredge.  I was seeking a book out that might be able to help me with some of the issues I was going through in my Christian walk.  And as I started reading the book to see if it were right for me I found myself nodding my head, a lot.

In my Christian walk I have found that I too have two answers to what has happened to me. They are:

1. I blew it.  I screwed up.  I did something wrong, etc.
2. God is holding out on me.

Both are devastatingly wrong, but in my current state of mind they were the two that made the most sense.  Either I had messed up or God could fix it, but wouldn't, and usually I would think He wouldn't because of something I had done.  A vicious cycle to be sure.

I'm still reading the book and what I read last night made me cry. (Just keep in mind I cry at Hallmark commercials, so if you're not inclined to crying you'll be fine, but if you are, get the Kleenex out.)  However, because of this book my perception and focus are changing.

I want to encourage you that if you feel stuck, like perhaps you'll never get it, as I do so often, that isn't the case.  That is a lie.  And we know who the father of all lies is.

In the coming weeks I'll tell you what I'm personally doing that I have found to help me, and perhaps can help you.

As you know I can't let this go without some music.

So here I give you:



Pictures of You
by The Last Goodnight
Much Love,
Kelli

Closer to Freedom

I'm getting closer to the freedom that I've been desiring and it makes me want to run through the streets with my arms above my head shouting.  However, this might be seen as an aggressive move and give me a reputation I don't want from the public.  Everyone who is close to me already knows the truth.

In ramping up for this I'm excited to tell you that I will actually be finishing RestoredSunshine.com, which is my letter business.  It will be a few weeks before I have everything in place, but it will finally get there.

Cakewrecks posted the link for this video yesterday on Twitter and I laughed so hard when I saw it I wanted to share it with all of you!



Have a fabulous weekend everyone. 

Much Love,
Kelli

Girls Night Out

That is what I am having tonight! 

So one of the big new things I'm doing is finding out how to do things I don't know how.  For example I know almost zero about cars.  I know that I need to change the oil and put gas in it to run.  I know how to check to see if I have oil, but to change the oil?  I haven't paid enough attention.

The other thing I'm doing is reading a new book.  I hope to explore this book with you as it is changing my heart and mind in such a glorious way.

So in the coming weeks I hope to bring you what I've learned in a fun and uplifting way.

Until then in response to our morning shower I give you:



It Never Rains in Southern California
by Albert Hammond

Much Love,
Kelli

A Big Decision

So I did something today that has been weighing on my mind for some time.  I've decided to step down from the board in which I mod.  It has been wonderful being a moderator, but my time is fleeting and I need to pursue some other venues that being needed on the board won't allow me to do in the capacity that I yearn for.

I feel a freedom with it, but I feel the loss as I have gotten to work with two incredible moderators on my time there.  So my heart hurts because of that.  However, I'm looking forward to this new chapter and I can't wait to share in the coming weeks what will be happening.

Much Love,
Kelli

A Huh? Moment.

I am a picky eater. 

I have been since birth.  Ask my mom, and anyone who has tried to feed me since birth.  They'll tell you I'm not exaggerating.

It isn't because they didn't try, bless their hearts, it is just the texture and taste of certain foods make me wig out.  For example, I love the taste of sweet potatoes, but I HATE the texture.  I sometimes have a shiver go down my spine if I find that the potato mushy.  (I detest regular potatoes no matter how you cook them.  Even french fries are questionable.)

Because of this food pickiness I sometimes suffer from food boredom, when I get sick of eating a particular food.  To help remedy this I choose my food at work the Sunday before it starts so I won't get food I won't eat. This allows for variety, cravings, fun, and practical money spending.

However, because I have allowed myself this freedom I have noticed that yes I do pick different foods, but they are all variations of the same thing:

Pizza Lunchables
French Bread Pizza
Hot Pockets w/ Pizza
Pizza slices

I've been doing this for weeks. 

I didn't notice until today.

It makes me go huh?

So while I ponder my predicament here is a great song:



New Soul
by Yael Naim

Much Love,
Kelli

Working Hard

Hello Loves!

I don't know about you but my days just seem to get away from me.  Today though my board celebrates something big.  I'm very proud to be a part of it and I just wanted to share something I did for the celebration.

Wallpaper belongs to Kelli W. Please ask permission for use.

There are a lot of changes happening in my life, but I'm looking forward to the change.  It will be sad in some cases, but is necessary.

I can't wait to share with you what is going on.

Much Love,
Kelli

McDonalds & Billy Joel

These two have nothing to do with one another except this morning I had McDonald's and I listened to Billy Joel.  To me that is a great way to start my Saturday.
I did make it to the office.  You can see by the new blog look it has been updated.  I have great tools here at the office, but not on my laptop at home.  I'm also creating work for my board that I mod.  The board has been there seven years, so it is a pretty big deal.

I hope that you are enjoying your Saturday out there.  We actually have to turn on our A/C at the house, that is how hot is has gotten.  A complete 180 from the ice days of only a week ago.

I've found new shoes that I've fallen in love with this.  My mom said if she won the lottery she would buy them for me.  I'm crossing my fingers.

Much Love,
Kelli