Saturday, September 11, 2010

The Stress of Not Stressing Out

When it gets to be too much for me I escape.  I watch One Tree Hill, a great movie, read a book, write my own story, or bake.  I've even started working out.  I should probably do it more... Then a night I do my prayer time, do my Bible study, and try my hardest to trust God that He is with me every step of the way, and that it won't always be like this.

Unfortunately none of it is working for me.  Anymore I'm waiting for it to get worse, for the other shoe to drop, and I am more than terrified that it will.  I'm at the end of my rope, no I've slipped from that, I'm somewhere in a pit and I seem to be digging even further down....

I don't know what to do, I don't know what I don't know, and I have all of these answers to my problems but none of them seem to be working!  If I ever write a book, I want it to be about how I learned to truly trust God and let go.  I truly believe that good things can come my way.  I truly believe that if God chose all these great things could happen, but what if that isn't the plan?  There were very few happy endings in the Bible... and thus starts the vicious cycle.

Plus business isn't going very well and I don't know how to make it better.  I'm trying to learn marketing, but I have absolutely no idea what to do.  I'm not  a salesperson at all.  I don't have the personality and further more, I don't enjoy it at all.  We have incredible products and services that can really help and benefit companies, but getting people to know about it is proving difficult.

Any words of wisdom?

Oh, and the other thing I do is listen to music.

This song this week:

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