The Stress of Not Stressing Out

When it gets to be too much for me I escape.  I watch One Tree Hill, a great movie, read a book, write my own story, or bake.  I've even started working out.  I should probably do it more... Then a night I do my prayer time, do my Bible study, and try my hardest to trust God that He is with me every step of the way, and that it won't always be like this.

Unfortunately none of it is working for me.  Anymore I'm waiting for it to get worse, for the other shoe to drop, and I am more than terrified that it will.  I'm at the end of my rope, no I've slipped from that, I'm somewhere in a pit and I seem to be digging even further down....

I don't know what to do, I don't know what I don't know, and I have all of these answers to my problems but none of them seem to be working!  If I ever write a book, I want it to be about how I learned to truly trust God and let go.  I truly believe that good things can come my way.  I truly believe that if God chose all these great things could happen, but what if that isn't the plan?  There were very few happy endings in the Bible... and thus starts the vicious cycle.

Plus business isn't going very well and I don't know how to make it better.  I'm trying to learn marketing, but I have absolutely no idea what to do.  I'm not  a salesperson at all.  I don't have the personality and further more, I don't enjoy it at all.  We have incredible products and services that can really help and benefit companies, but getting people to know about it is proving difficult.

Any words of wisdom?

Oh, and the other thing I do is listen to music.

This song this week:

I Have a Blog, Perhaps I Should Post to It

I've been suffering a major set of writer's block and quite frankly a desire to stay away from anything related to a computer.  My love affair of TweetDeck ended, but I keep going back to it because there is something in me that loves to be distracted by news and other things. 

When I start to really get frustrated and upset with life and my situation I have a tendency to pull back, which is why no one has really heard from me via YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, Email, or here.  I really don't know what to say or express the frustration in a way that won't drive me crazy when I re-read it months later.  I don't particularly want a ton of posts whining on and on.

However, as Pioneer Woman pointed out, I really should blog.  Plus I like talking or well writing, but you get the idea.

Meanwhile, totally unrelated, but one that makes me kind of  bleh, One Tree Hill and Glee are on at the same time!  Which totally sucks.  Granted I'll tape One Tree Hill and watch Glee, but still...the fact I'm even inconvenienced is what gets me...

On another TV note I fell for a show I swore I wouldn't.  One I didn't want to get caught up in or even care of its existence.  I really should have known better.  Then I had to go and make it worse and get my dad hooked on it.  Darn you, USA Network!!!  I'm shaking my fist at you.  And Tim DeKay... yes the show I'm talking about is White Collar.  And no I don't watch it because Mat Bomer is incredibly good looking.  I watch it because I like Tim DeKay more.  I'm a weirdo, but what are you going to do?

That's right you are going to do nothing.  NOTHING.  If my parents couldn't change me you certainly don't have a chance. I would say no judgement, but I don't care.  The show is great and I can't wait until it is back in January and Mozzie is safe and sound.  Oh and my beloved Psych, how awesome are you. 

I'll tell you more about my USA Network problem later.  Let's just say the only show I'm not watching on there is Royal Pains, and I'm sure that is only a matter of time as well....

Have a great weekend.  You can guess what I'm watching...